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南野 秀一, Minamino Shūichi / 蔵くら馬ま Kurama ([personal profile] sinningtree) wrote in [community profile] genkaitemple2024-03-08 01:20 pm

Kurahi Catch-All: Unspoken Thing

Unspoken Thing
The hardest thing about life is
when the person who gave you the most memories
becomes a memory.
how odd it is to be
haunted
by someone that is still alive
Date
01/27/24 Injured: ⋙ Dark Tournament
01/29/24 Insomnia: ⋙ Dark Tournament
02/11/24 Intimate Bathing: ⋙ Post Series
02/25/24 Loss: ⋙ Post Series
03/04/24 Unspoken Thing: ⋙ Resurrection [completed]
03/19/24 Defrosting: ⋙ Post Series
04/17/24 Garden: ⋙ Resurrection [completed]
06/03/24 Kurama's Return: ⋙ Resurrection [completed]
08/06/24 Picnic: ⋙ Post Series
08/22/24 Domestic Fluff: ⋙ Post Series
09/20/24 Sickness*: ⋙ Resurrection
Chronologically
01/27/24 Injured: ⋙ Dark Tournament
01/29/24 Insomnia: ⋙ Dark Tournament
02/11/24 Intimate Bathing: ⋙ Post Series
02/25/24 Loss: ⋙ Post Series
08/06/24 Picnic: ⋙ Post Series
03/19/24 Defrosting: ⋙ Post Series
08/22/24 Domestic Fluff: ⋙ Post Series
03/04/24 Unspoken Thing: ⋙ Resurrection [completed]
04/17/24 Garden: ⋙ Resurrection [completed]
06/03/24 Kurama's Return: ⋙ Resurrection [completed]
09/20/24 Sickness*: ⋙ Resurrection
Pending
MM/DD/YY Kissing Scars: ⋙ Timeline
MM/DD/YY Eating Together: ⋙ Timeline
MM/DD/YY Swear To Me: ⋙ Timeline
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[personal profile] jaganshi 2024-11-14 01:53 am (UTC)(link)

Right now, Hiei would much prefer if Kurama left. Though not for the reasons the fox would know or think of, as he goes on about him having an appetite. He still looks like shit because he feels like shit, but like hell is he going to admit that. Instead, he is going to focus on the rhythm of his breathing, counting to make sure it all just looks... normal. As normal as possible. As normal as he can possibly hope to make it, anyway.

"Mn. It's a start." If he can keep it down, anyway. He reaches for a glass of water as the next wave of nausea rises up, hoping that the active action of swallowing may help to keep things down and prevent him from telling on himself. Thankfully it's room temperature, which is better than something cold as things go with stomachs.

"I don't think it would hurt. At least I could go and sit with the children." It would get him out of the room, at least, and take his focus off of feeling like absolute shit for a little while. He almost debates asking the fox for something to force him to sleep, but.. decides against it for fear he will tell on himself by doing so.

The comment about constant surveillance does at least spur him to laugh, even slightly, eyes rolling. "You're very chipper all of a sudden."
jaganshi: (you are the devil)

[personal profile] jaganshi 2024-11-15 03:05 am (UTC)(link)

Hiei’s eyes roll at the question. Of course he wants to get better. More than anything he would love to no longer have to think about this mysterious illness, about everything stacking up to be done while he languishes and never seems to not be tired. And yet here he is, exhausted and nauseous and hoping that the redhead will leave at some point so he can be miserable alone trying to hold down his light dinner. Above anything it is incredibly annoying that this seems to cling to him like a leech somehow.

They both know the root of it, to some extent, and Hiei is still unwilling to just say it and possibly lighten his own load despite this.

His stomach lurches again, stronger this time, and Hiei’s face slips in to annoyance that is thankfully, somewhat explainable.

“Of course I do. I can’t possibly think of anything worse than staying so tir-“ Hiei is still blessedly fast, a hand clamping over his own mouth as his stomach forces his hand. There’s no hiding it now, even as Hiei still stubbornly fights his body’s want to firmly eject his dinner.

It takes him a moment, and no doubt Kurama’s picky nose will smell the bile in his mouth when he finally speaks again.

“- so tired.”

So much for signs of improvement.
jaganshi: (i'm not taking the punishment)

[personal profile] jaganshi 2024-12-17 05:46 pm (UTC)(link)

In this, Hiei doesn’t begrudge Kurama’s fast thinking. It would be pretty difficult to sleep in the room with the lingering smell, though.. he’s slept with worse during the course of his admittedly much shorter life. While it would be a prime way to get the fox to not want to sleep in the room where he is… he also doesn’t want to hear the list of complaints after.

From the redhead and his sister, considering. It takes the fire apparition a moment to gather his wits and make sure his stomach is stable enough, but he moves to stand a bit slower than usual after a few mental checks. The path to the exit is at least very short, which works to his advantage, and after taking a moment to rest in the doorway and take a deep breath of fresh air, steps out and in to the grass.

If this were years ago, having Kurama here to take care of him would hav been a comfort. Now, the tight sensation in his chest is conflict. He both wants an yet despises the redhead’s proximity. Wants him closer and yet wants him to just stay away all in the same breath. As much as the fox’s death had hurt, somehow the fact of having him back again is simply harder to wrap his mind around. Or perhaps it’s more accurate to say his heart. At any rate the cool night air is helping, for the moment, and Hiei finally admits in low tones:

“I shouldn’t have eaten so much.” But Yukons had looked so encouraged by the fact he was eating that he had soldiered more than he should have.
jaganshi: (you'll never finish me)

[personal profile] jaganshi 2025-01-01 12:57 am (UTC)(link)

"When have I ever known about being cautious?" He isn't really asking, of course, breathing in and out in a very measured pace, clearly fighting against the way his stomach twists and rolls. He will not elaborate that he simply wanted to keep Yukina off his back too, knowing that Kurama would certainly not see that as reason enough for what he's brought upon himself. Even Hiei at this moment does not find it excuse enough, but this is his punishment all the same.

At the very least he doesn't have any plans to be off in the woods tonight, not like this anyway. There's little to no reason to keep on pushing when the past few days have already pushed him to the edge of what he is willing to endure in order to carry on as normal. The fire apparition is very much not used to feeling ill like this, and would very much like for it to go away as quickly as possible, despite all of his overatures at biting his nose to spite his face that Kurama has now witnessed.

"I have no plans to be up and doing anything." At least not until morning where he was more than likely planning to push himself up in order to keep up witht he children's training in any way that he can. He knows Yukina has had to keep Hina at bay at the very least from visiting him. Though.. if Kurama is offering something for the nausea and it might keep him at least in his periphery a little longer...

"Yes. If it can at least work to help me get to sleep it will be worth it."
jaganshi: (you are the devil)

[personal profile] jaganshi 2025-01-15 07:29 pm (UTC)(link)

“She was so pleased I was eating at all…” And Hiei does, despite all of his huffing and puffing, like to keep Yukina happy. It’s been different, surrounding the point of Kurama and their former-and-still-continuing relationship recently, but if he can appease her by eating, why not?

Obviously this is his answer, but still.

The fire demon nods his acknowledgment as Kurama retreats to make his tincture or tea, still breathing through the way his stomach rolls and pinches, trying to make him give in to vomiting. He is stubborn as always, long breaths of cold night air sustaining him from giving in until Kurama returns. There is no point in bickering with him that he does not have time to begin with, not to mention not having time to be ill like this. Kurama would never see eye to eye with him on this, and more than likely would see right through it as an excuse he is making in order to try and avoid all of his turmoil over the two of them.

Kurama will find him pacing, arms crossed behind his head when he returns, still breathing in a slow, measured pace, muttering to himself about about how stupid all of this is.
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[personal profile] jaganshi 2025-01-28 02:53 pm (UTC)(link)

Unfortunately for them both, Hiei and self control aren’t all that friendly. He is capable of it from time to time, but only under some cajoling, and even then he is more focused in this moment on forcing his body to heal and move on from whatever it is he has going on that he puts himself right back where he doesn’t want to be.

… Hiei has always been the most proficient at self sabotage as his hobby, after all.

The fire demon stops his pacing as Kurama speaks, taking a moment to consider. At this point the help to sleep seems like his best option, perhaps even the best option considering his body’s near constant protests about doing anything other than feeling ill in some format or another. Eventually he nods, agreeing to the fox’s terms for the moment and moving to return to the room. Movement had done best to distract his mind from what was going on, an d so his hands are already outstretched to the Youko for the tea he’s prepared.

Hiei stares at the tea for a long moment, mulling over Kurama’s question and, for a moment, hesitating to say what he wants to. But they are here already, and so after a moment to sigh at both himself and the situation, Hiei finally asks :

“Stay until I fall asleep, at least.”
jaganshi: (you'll never finish me)

[personal profile] jaganshi 2025-01-30 01:22 am (UTC)(link)

Hiei is quickly growing tired of this entire 'being sick' exercise. Of course he is - and he has little to no idea of what the hell could be causing it, or what could make it recur like this other than his inability to stay still or do anything in moderation. If only he had the ability to have a frank conversation, they wouldn't be here at all. But of course neither of them can do anything by halves, or easily, and even if Kurama might be able to at least make the effort... Hiei is nearly incapable of following suit.

"Mn." The fire apparition agrees with that little sound, eyeing the cup Kurama has brought him for a moment longer. He isn't usually all that keen on anything that will force him in to sleep, but at this moment it seems like the kindest alternative to simply tossing and turning all evening as his stomach gives another restless roll.

Reminded of why he's agreed to this in the first place, Hiei drinks what Kurama has given him, steady but not rushing. If only he'd learned the 'not rushing' part earlier.

Once it's all down, though, the fire demon will ask the question he maybe should have a little earlier :

"How long do I have until I'm out?" Thankfully there isn't any bedding set up left to do, really.
jaganshi: (no point in counting)

[personal profile] jaganshi 2025-02-03 03:29 pm (UTC)(link)

“Fine. I should just lay down now, then.” Make it easier on all of them. He wouldn’t want Kurama to have to pick him up and put him to bed again, nor would be enjoy stressing out his niece and nephew again. He’s heard enough about that first time he’d fainted, and being scolded by a child with Yukina’s face is not exactly on his to-do list when he faces it twice, now.

He is tired, but the constant, nagging feeling that he ought to take a nap is not that unusual thanks to the Jagan and the dragon to begin with. It is simply more annoying when it’s caused by who knows what, and even if he did face up to it… admitting that he was literally making himself sick fretting over this entire situation is a different bag of biting problems. At any rate, he settles on to the mattress with a little sigh, his expression a mixture of frustration and annoyance, both about the situation and himself. Hiei, as proud as he is, hates all of this relying on other people to take care of him or even asking the fox to stay, but…

There’s no denying he’s more likely to fight sleep if there isn’t anyone close by he feels can watch out for them all.

Though it does bring up a thought, however futile it may be -

“Maybe I should contact Mukuro about a tank. I’ll lose my mind if this lasts much longer.”
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[personal profile] jaganshi 2025-02-06 01:33 am (UTC)(link)

"I have been tired since this started." Not entirely true - he did feel better for that fleeting moment before he'd fallen right back in after his fever had broken. Overall it's a frustrating thing to be dealing with, only made worse by the peaks and valleys along the way. The fire apparition still hasn't even allowed himself to entertain the thought that Kurama's presence, or even the entire situation surrounding him, may be in any way responsible for his illness.

How would be his greatest question, really.

Surely his own mixed emotions couldn't be giving him a fever like this, right?

At any rate, Kurama's agreement almost spurs him to say something about getting him out of his hair, but he bites it down, a bit cautious about starting a fight when he is going to be asleep anytime now.

"... The problem would be getting to her, more than anything else."
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[personal profile] jaganshi 2025-02-19 01:23 am (UTC)(link)

He almost makes a comment to ask if the fox has forgotten who he is talking to, but wisely leans back against the wall, waiting for drowsiness instead. In a way, he wishes it was almost instantaneous so that there wasn't time to recognize it. Time to be in the middle of something, a thought that he wants to finish before he allows Kurama to go away, but that's not in their cards. Perhaps something to request if this becomes a continuing theme - though he genuinely hopes that this is not something that will recur.

... Though with the continuing tumult between them.. who knew.

"If I cannot go under my own power, I am not going." Like hell will he allow himself to be carried to the caravan, or anything of the sort, even if it pushes him physically to do so. He still has not told Mukuro about the fact that Kurama was back and.. well. Hiei does not plan to tell her anything before she needs to know, or before it suits him to allow her to know. With everything else going on, the last thing he needs is for Mukuro to add herself to the list of people asking her about how things are going with Kurama, or simply smirking at him in that way she always had when he would return to the demon world, from time to time, after they had begun to live together.

The demoness had always found it amusing, actually. If asked she would make some passing, evasive comment about the smell of roses amid cinder or something like that and, blessedly, had left him mostly alone since Kurama's death. In her own way Mukuro had attempted to encourage him to move on, the occasional 'playful' comment about comment about someone wanting his attention, or how she'd noticed him on another.

The problem persists, though, that 'once bitten, twice shy' remains true for Hiei. Loving and losing has not made him fonder, instead it has made the fire apparition twice gun shy about placing anything close to trust in another person perhaps ever again. He had been steady on his own - and it had been his own foolishness to let the fox in, despite what he knew of it all.

"Mukuro does not know you are back - " Meaning she hasn't said anything about it yet so he is counting that as does not know. " - And I want to keep it that way."
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[personal profile] jaganshi 2025-02-21 02:57 am (UTC)(link)

Part of his stanch position that she did not know was mostly the fact that he wished she did not. Of course it would explain a lot of his absences lately - and sometimes his volatile moods when he would return - but it wasn’t as though the former king had ever out and out asked. He was her right hand and her ally - but it didn’t mean she kept tabs on him day and night.

They had an understanding, still. Even after all these years she knew that there was something there, no matter how wrung out he had been returning to her compound knowing Kurama was gone. Even after he’d spent countless hours doing absolutely nothing but wallowing in his own miseries simply because he could.

Jealous?” A huff of an actual laugh leaves him, shifting slightly as drowsiness begins to settle in, but not quite ready to lay down. His arms cross over his chest, a subconscious move to close off.

“If she does, she hasn’t yet told me I am an idiot.” Because he is, and he knows it. For being here, for spending time around the one person he both wanted with all his being and yet knew he ought to stay away from. “And I prefer her quiet, on that subject.”

She can beat him in to the ground infinitely for all he cares - he simply does not want to hear the lecture or the subtle jokes.