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genkaitemple2024-03-08 01:20 pm
sinningtree) wrote in genkaitemple2024-03-08 01:20 pm
Kurahi Catch-All: Unspoken Thing
Unspoken Thing
The hardest thing about life is
when the person who gave you the most memories
becomes a memory.
when the person who gave you the most memories
becomes a memory.
how odd it is
to be
by someone that is still alive
Date※ 01/27/24 Injured: ⋙ Dark Tournament
※ 01/29/24 Insomnia: ⋙ Dark Tournament
※ 02/11/24 Intimate Bathing: ⋙ Post Series
※ 02/25/24 Loss: ⋙ Post Series
※ 03/04/24 Unspoken Thing: ⋙ Resurrection [completed]
※ 03/19/24 Defrosting: ⋙ Post Series
※ 04/17/24 Garden: ⋙ Resurrection [completed]
※ 06/03/24 Kurama's Return: ⋙ Resurrection [completed]
※ 08/06/24 Picnic: ⋙ Post Series
※ 08/22/24 Domestic Fluff: ⋙ Post Series
※ 09/20/24 Sickness*: ⋙ Resurrection
Chronologically
※ 01/27/24 Injured: ⋙ Dark Tournament
※ 01/29/24 Insomnia: ⋙ Dark Tournament
※ 02/11/24 Intimate Bathing: ⋙ Post Series
※ 02/25/24 Loss: ⋙ Post Series
※ 08/06/24 Picnic: ⋙ Post Series
※ 03/19/24 Defrosting: ⋙ Post Series
※ 08/22/24 Domestic Fluff: ⋙ Post Series
※ 03/04/24 Unspoken Thing: ⋙ Resurrection [completed]
※ 04/17/24 Garden: ⋙ Resurrection [completed]
※ 06/03/24 Kurama's Return: ⋙ Resurrection [completed]
※ 09/20/24 Sickness*: ⋙ Resurrection
Pending
※ MM/DD/YY Kissing Scars: ⋙ Timeline
※ MM/DD/YY Eating Together: ⋙ Timeline
※ MM/DD/YY Swear To Me: ⋙ Timeline
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Unfortunately for them both, Hiei and self control aren’t all that friendly. He is capable of it from time to time, but only under some cajoling, and even then he is more focused in this moment on forcing his body to heal and move on from whatever it is he has going on that he puts himself right back where he doesn’t want to be.
… Hiei has always been the most proficient at self sabotage as his hobby, after all.
The fire demon stops his pacing as Kurama speaks, taking a moment to consider. At this point the help to sleep seems like his best option, perhaps even the best option considering his body’s near constant protests about doing anything other than feeling ill in some format or another. Eventually he nods, agreeing to the fox’s terms for the moment and moving to return to the room. Movement had done best to distract his mind from what was going on, an d so his hands are already outstretched to the Youko for the tea he’s prepared.
Hiei stares at the tea for a long moment, mulling over Kurama’s question and, for a moment, hesitating to say what he wants to. But they are here already, and so after a moment to sigh at both himself and the situation, Hiei finally asks :
“Stay until I fall asleep, at least.”
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The redhead watches while the fire apparition does as he says without argument or even a sarcastic quip about the delay in his recovery. That alone is enough to get his attention as he passes the tea over, holding himself perhaps a little too still as the fire apparition sighs before responding.
“Of course,” It comes automatically, with no hint of the hesitation that Hiei had expressed in making the request. Kurama's original plan was to return to his own room that night, between the fire apparition's evident improvement and repeated assertions that he'd wanted to be left alone throughout the day. It was his plan, up until all of that had been upended unexpectedly, at least.
After the briefest pause, he adds simply, “As long as you'd like.”
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Hiei is quickly growing tired of this entire 'being sick' exercise. Of course he is - and he has little to no idea of what the hell could be causing it, or what could make it recur like this other than his inability to stay still or do anything in moderation. If only he had the ability to have a frank conversation, they wouldn't be here at all. But of course neither of them can do anything by halves, or easily, and even if Kurama might be able to at least make the effort... Hiei is nearly incapable of following suit.
"Mn." The fire apparition agrees with that little sound, eyeing the cup Kurama has brought him for a moment longer. He isn't usually all that keen on anything that will force him in to sleep, but at this moment it seems like the kindest alternative to simply tossing and turning all evening as his stomach gives another restless roll.
Reminded of why he's agreed to this in the first place, Hiei drinks what Kurama has given him, steady but not rushing. If only he'd learned the 'not rushing' part earlier.
Once it's all down, though, the fire demon will ask the question he maybe should have a little earlier :
"How long do I have until I'm out?" Thankfully there isn't any bedding set up left to do, really.
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“Hard to say. The circumstances are unprecedented, as I've said before, and your unique situation only further complicates any attempt at prediction. You've improved a bit since the first dose, for one, which will alter the effectiveness. That's all without factoring in that, on top of all this, tonight's specific brew is an entirely new combination of ingredients.”
Your guess is as good as his, Hiei.
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“Fine. I should just lay down now, then.” Make it easier on all of them. He wouldn’t want Kurama to have to pick him up and put him to bed again, nor would be enjoy stressing out his niece and nephew again. He’s heard enough about that first time he’d fainted, and being scolded by a child with Yukina’s face is not exactly on his to-do list when he faces it twice, now.
He is tired, but the constant, nagging feeling that he ought to take a nap is not that unusual thanks to the Jagan and the dragon to begin with. It is simply more annoying when it’s caused by who knows what, and even if he did face up to it… admitting that he was literally making himself sick fretting over this entire situation is a different bag of biting problems. At any rate, he settles on to the mattress with a little sigh, his expression a mixture of frustration and annoyance, both about the situation and himself. Hiei, as proud as he is, hates all of this relying on other people to take care of him or even asking the fox to stay, but…
There’s no denying he’s more likely to fight sleep if there isn’t anyone close by he feels can watch out for them all.
Though it does bring up a thought, however futile it may be -
“Maybe I should contact Mukuro about a tank. I’ll lose my mind if this lasts much longer.”
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Kurama's own reluctance to stick around is entirely that. He knows that Hiei would prefer his space and to do things on his own terms, that much had never changed about him. He's also aware that his presence is somehow related to what started this in the first place, even if his theories on how are educated guesses, at best. The fire apparition may be doing this to himself, but the fox can't help thinking his proximity - and Hiei's jumbled feelings on that matter - only serves to prolong his suffering.
The suggestion to ask Mukuro for a tank is met with momentary silence, the fox not responding right away as he considers before answering. “Perhaps... returning would actually be the most efficient treatment.”
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"I have been tired since this started." Not entirely true - he did feel better for that fleeting moment before he'd fallen right back in after his fever had broken. Overall it's a frustrating thing to be dealing with, only made worse by the peaks and valleys along the way. The fire apparition still hasn't even allowed himself to entertain the thought that Kurama's presence, or even the entire situation surrounding him, may be in any way responsible for his illness.
How would be his greatest question, really.
Surely his own mixed emotions couldn't be giving him a fever like this, right?
At any rate, Kurama's agreement almost spurs him to say something about getting him out of his hair, but he bites it down, a bit cautious about starting a fight when he is going to be asleep anytime now.
"... The problem would be getting to her, more than anything else."
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Thankfully Hiei thinks better of his retort, allowing Kurama to remain oblivious to that thought, for now, at least. Ironic considering how much effort the fire apparition has gone into making his presence out to be the inconvenience through most of this.
“With combined resources, we'll be able to work something out. However, that's a decision for tomorrow. I'm sure in the state you're heading, conversation and travel will both be out of question in short order. Based on how previous night's have gone, at least.”
Hiei doesn't want to risk taking the level of absolutely zero filter he experienced the last time he was drugged back to demon world, does he? That sounds like a recipe for disaster.
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He almost makes a comment to ask if the fox has forgotten who he is talking to, but wisely leans back against the wall, waiting for drowsiness instead. In a way, he wishes it was almost instantaneous so that there wasn't time to recognize it. Time to be in the middle of something, a thought that he wants to finish before he allows Kurama to go away, but that's not in their cards. Perhaps something to request if this becomes a continuing theme - though he genuinely hopes that this is not something that will recur.
... Though with the continuing tumult between them.. who knew.
"If I cannot go under my own power, I am not going." Like hell will he allow himself to be carried to the caravan, or anything of the sort, even if it pushes him physically to do so. He still has not told Mukuro about the fact that Kurama was back and.. well. Hiei does not plan to tell her anything before she needs to know, or before it suits him to allow her to know. With everything else going on, the last thing he needs is for Mukuro to add herself to the list of people asking her about how things are going with Kurama, or simply smirking at him in that way she always had when he would return to the demon world, from time to time, after they had begun to live together.
The demoness had always found it amusing, actually. If asked she would make some passing, evasive comment about the smell of roses amid cinder or something like that and, blessedly, had left him mostly alone since Kurama's death. In her own way Mukuro had attempted to encourage him to move on, the occasional 'playful' comment about comment about someone wanting his attention, or how she'd noticed him on another.
The problem persists, though, that 'once bitten, twice shy' remains true for Hiei. Loving and losing has not made him fonder, instead it has made the fire apparition twice gun shy about placing anything close to trust in another person perhaps ever again. He had been steady on his own - and it had been his own foolishness to let the fox in, despite what he knew of it all.
"Mukuro does not know you are back - " Meaning she hasn't said anything about it yet so he is counting that as does not know. " - And I want to keep it that way."
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His eyebrows lift as Hiei says she's unaware of his presence there, as if that should make any difference at all in any of this. If the fire apparition had remained at the temple since, the fox might entertain the idea that Mukuro was unaware of his reasons for being there so long, but Hiei had come and gone enough times now after Kurama's return that he can't imagine she'd be so oblivious to miss the signs.
“Afraid she'll be jealous that's the reason you're spending so much time here?” He doesn't think that's the case at all, as evidenced by the blatant tease in his tone, but the quip comes so naturally that it's out before he thinks better of it. It's more that he's calling the fire apparition's bluff, even if it could just be denial on Hiei's part to think so.
“You don't truly think she hasn't noticed, do you?” Maybe saying nothing is tactical on her part, deliberate to keep Hiei from knowing she's realized, whatever her own reasons. The fox may be old, but Mukuro is older, it's hard to say what motive she may have for how she operates, but he doubts she's saying nothing without cause. Even if her logic is just to give Hiei time to work it out and bring it up on his own terms.
Time would tell.
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Part of his stanch position that she did not know was mostly the fact that he wished she did not. Of course it would explain a lot of his absences lately - and sometimes his volatile moods when he would return - but it wasn’t as though the former king had ever out and out asked. He was her right hand and her ally - but it didn’t mean she kept tabs on him day and night.
They had an understanding, still. Even after all these years she knew that there was something there, no matter how wrung out he had been returning to her compound knowing Kurama was gone. Even after he’d spent countless hours doing absolutely nothing but wallowing in his own miseries simply because he could.
“Jealous?” A huff of an actual laugh leaves him, shifting slightly as drowsiness begins to settle in, but not quite ready to lay down. His arms cross over his chest, a subconscious move to close off.
“If she does, she hasn’t yet told me I am an idiot.” Because he is, and he knows it. For being here, for spending time around the one person he both wanted with all his being and yet knew he ought to stay away from. “And I prefer her quiet, on that subject.”
She can beat him in to the ground infinitely for all he cares - he simply does not want to hear the lecture or the subtle jokes.