Hiei would never, he thinks, stop wondering what exactly had drawn Kurama to him. With all that he knew of the fox spirit’s history, surely a fire apparition with a jagan eye had not been all that interesting. His status as a forbidden child is perhaps a contender, but it was hardly something that he had ever flaunted or seen the benefits of. And of course he has not looked far enough inward to realize just how deeply that singular fact continues to affect his choices and self worth a few centuries on.
He may have been so lucky as to appreciate his time spent with the fox if he hadn’t had such a short span (in the demon sense of things) without some kind of worrying about the redhead’s aging. His physical appearance Hiei couldn’t care less about - it wasn’t only Kurama’s outer appearance, human or demon, that he valued after all. But as his human body began to fail him with all the creaks and pains that came along with it, so deepened Hiei’s anxiety about his partner. Enough that he had put aside his progress in demon world to watch over him himself, wordlessly dismissing the fox’s insistence that he ought to go and move on.
In retrospect it stung somehow worse for Kurama to push him to be away long before he was actually gone.
All of it aside, pushed back as “passed” in the typical demon way, is now the reason Hiei has the gall to sigh as Kurama says it brings up more questions, in fact. Stirring up all of this may not have any effect other than making Kurama curious, and while he had done this to himself… sharing his personal struggles or brushes with death has never been Hiei’s forte. He has usually been quite adept at picking himself up and brushing off from cruelty or near death, only to find that losing his source of softness had crippled him in a way he couldn’t have anticipated.
It doesn’t occur to Hiei that his story about Shigure may shift Kurama’s feelings about his fight with him - another thing they’ve never outright spoken about. His assumption is that this news won’t change anything, that Kurama is wondering why he’s telling him at all. Even Hiei is unsure what has spurred him to say this much.
At the very least the redhead doesn’t launch in to a list of questions about what he’s just said right away, though the invitation earns him a long, suspicious glance. Not all that long ago Hiei had been unsure Kurama wanted him within his orbit at all, and now..
Now he nods, gesturing for Kurama to lead the way. What harm could it do that hadn’t already been done before to follow him to the clearing of demon world plants?
“We may want to bring something for the carnivorous ones, in case they’ve been unlucky lately.”
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He may have been so lucky as to appreciate his time spent with the fox if he hadn’t had such a short span (in the demon sense of things) without some kind of worrying about the redhead’s aging. His physical appearance Hiei couldn’t care less about - it wasn’t only Kurama’s outer appearance, human or demon, that he valued after all. But as his human body began to fail him with all the creaks and pains that came along with it, so deepened Hiei’s anxiety about his partner. Enough that he had put aside his progress in demon world to watch over him himself, wordlessly dismissing the fox’s insistence that he ought to go and move on.
In retrospect it stung somehow worse for Kurama to push him to be away long before he was actually gone.
All of it aside, pushed back as “passed” in the typical demon way, is now the reason Hiei has the gall to sigh as Kurama says it brings up more questions, in fact. Stirring up all of this may not have any effect other than making Kurama curious, and while he had done this to himself… sharing his personal struggles or brushes with death has never been Hiei’s forte. He has usually been quite adept at picking himself up and brushing off from cruelty or near death, only to find that losing his source of softness had crippled him in a way he couldn’t have anticipated.
It doesn’t occur to Hiei that his story about Shigure may shift Kurama’s feelings about his fight with him - another thing they’ve never outright spoken about. His assumption is that this news won’t change anything, that Kurama is wondering why he’s telling him at all. Even Hiei is unsure what has spurred him to say this much.
At the very least the redhead doesn’t launch in to a list of questions about what he’s just said right away, though the invitation earns him a long, suspicious glance. Not all that long ago Hiei had been unsure Kurama wanted him within his orbit at all, and now..
Now he nods, gesturing for Kurama to lead the way. What harm could it do that hadn’t already been done before to follow him to the clearing of demon world plants?
“We may want to bring something for the carnivorous ones, in case they’ve been unlucky lately.”