In that moment where Hiei tries to understand, the fox worries that he'll push for a clearer explanation. The last thing he wants to admit is that he was embarrassed that such a mundane exchange caused him any level of hurt. All the times that the fire demon had lashed out at him and it was the unintentional misstep cutting the deepest, well meaning as it had been.
Kurama had purposefully made a point of never bringing up what he wanted. He spoke of his intentions, of Hiei's wants and how the fire apparition refused to allow himself to admit them - at least, not out loud. The fox had no plans to make any of this about his own interests, or to even discuss them, out of an abundance of caution. His preference wasn't the point, he'd taken what he'd wanted before and it had left them both miserable in the end, the only concern he had now was mending whatever there was left to repair between them.
Of course, if Hiei had taken a look, there was little he could do about whatever the fire apparition might have uncovered. About his motivation or anything leading up to it over the past fifty years. Still, it was his goal to be as transparent as possible, the Jagan shouldn't need to be used in that way ever again.
Hiei might never understand. The fact that Kurama had chosen death all those years ago and pursued his own selfish desires without consideration for the wants of others, he'd had plenty of time to think it over, reflect on that decision while witnessing the outcome of those actions. As far as he was concerned, he'd made the wrong choice and would do whatever he could to make up for that, now.
“Had you asked, do you truly suppose you would have been satisfied with the results?” Hiei was far too suspicious, if he felt the need to go so far as checking for himself. Getting permission would have allowed Kurama a chance to mislead him, which would have defeated the entire purpose and the fox is aware of that, himself. It was less of a question, more of an acknowledgement that this was the only way it could have been done. No sense being upset about it when it was the most direct way for Hiei to understand what he'd been saying right along, seeing it for himself.
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Kurama had purposefully made a point of never bringing up what he wanted. He spoke of his intentions, of Hiei's wants and how the fire apparition refused to allow himself to admit them - at least, not out loud. The fox had no plans to make any of this about his own interests, or to even discuss them, out of an abundance of caution. His preference wasn't the point, he'd taken what he'd wanted before and it had left them both miserable in the end, the only concern he had now was mending whatever there was left to repair between them.
Of course, if Hiei had taken a look, there was little he could do about whatever the fire apparition might have uncovered. About his motivation or anything leading up to it over the past fifty years. Still, it was his goal to be as transparent as possible, the Jagan shouldn't need to be used in that way ever again.
Hiei might never understand. The fact that Kurama had chosen death all those years ago and pursued his own selfish desires without consideration for the wants of others, he'd had plenty of time to think it over, reflect on that decision while witnessing the outcome of those actions. As far as he was concerned, he'd made the wrong choice and would do whatever he could to make up for that, now.
“Had you asked, do you truly suppose you would have been satisfied with the results?” Hiei was far too suspicious, if he felt the need to go so far as checking for himself. Getting permission would have allowed Kurama a chance to mislead him, which would have defeated the entire purpose and the fox is aware of that, himself. It was less of a question, more of an acknowledgement that this was the only way it could have been done. No sense being upset about it when it was the most direct way for Hiei to understand what he'd been saying right along, seeing it for himself.